Back again

Hello, I am back to almost my normal self.  Cancer free!!! All surgeries are finished and i am now just getting stronger by the day.  I apologize for being away so long.  Fatigue got the better of me by the end of the treatments and I got very bored talking about my condition.  I know people were checking in and I am sorry for not being better at keeping up.  I think this will bee my last entry since I am not much of a correspondent and I prefer email.  Thanks to all for your support, love, and encouragement.

Easter Sunday

It is a gorgeous day today here in Big Sky.  Since I still have several feet of snow in my yard I have given up on having spring come this year.  But, the weather has been so weird all over the country so I can't complain.  I had an infusion a week ago and am doing better than in the past.  they reduced the dose by 10% and that seems to have helped.  Maybe, if the medication stays available I will finally be able to get treatment finished by July.  That is my hope anyway.  I know I owe many of you a letter or phone call but am still struggling with fatigue and don't seem to get around to things I am supposed to do.  Please be patient.

March 11

I have had a bit of a bump in the road.  The chemo drug that is most effective for my type of cancer is not available at the present time.  I have been switched to an oral drug along with the infusion and have had some problems adjusting.  Mostly major fatigue and stomach upset.  The thing that has me most bothered is that it is extending the time I am going to be on chemo.  Which then means I won't be able to travel or get back to my normal life until late fall.  Hopefully they will get more supplies of the original drug and I can get back to the other routine.  For now I am continually learning about patience and acceptance.  Not always so easy.  Thanks for checking in and hopefully next time I will have better news.

Feb. 22nd

I apologize for being so slow with my updates.  Nothing much is different.  My meds are straightened out and I am now feeling pretty good most of the time.  I am not ready to run any races yet but for the most part I am doing well.  I get frustrated with a couple of things - chemo brain for one.  I thought post menopausal forgetfulness was bad - it doesn't hold a candle to "chemo brain".  Trying to hold a thought is very difficult and makes getting back to writing impossible at the moment.  I am journaling however and that hopefully is keeping things in my mind somewhere. :-)  The other frustrating thing that goes along wit this is that my creative energy has come back and my physical energy is lacking.  So even if I can hold thoughts together I run out of energy before I get very far.  Oh well, things could be much worse.

Mostly I am so grateful for how well i am doing and for the fact that I will recover.  I see so many people in much worse places and it can only make be thankful.  I continue to be so thankful for all the cards, notes, thoughts, prayers, etc. that come my way.  I am truly blessed!!!

Jan. 22nd

Good morning - I started chemo yesterday and although it was a long day I am doing quite well.  Just a few odd side effects that are not much of a bother.  Hopefully this will stay true for the 6 months.  My sister is here now and my other sister is coming. She eaves Friday and then my other sister is coming Saturday.  I don't know what I would have done without my sibs!!!  Again thank you all for the support, thoughts and prayers.  It all helps so mcu!

Jan. 15th

Hello. I finally have more energy and thought I should do an update. Five weeks since surgery and I am progressing as well as can be expected. I am getting a bit bored with all of this but know that I still have a long way to go. Somehow it doesn't seem quite right that getting over the surgery means that I can then have six months of chemotherapy. But, They tell me I will be cured so I am really grateful. My sister is now here taking care of me and when she leaves my other sister will come. I have been very well cared for!!
That's it for now. Again thanks for all the love and prayers that are coming my way!